Children are a gift from the lord, they are a reward from him.

Proverbs 127:3
June 2019


I thought I was surprised when the test came back positive.

I just didn’t know yet.

I thought I was surprised hearing your little heartbeat.

I just didn’t know yet.

I thought I was surprised seeing your sweet face on the ultrasound.

I just didn’t know yet.

I thought I was surprised feeling the first big kick.

I just didn’t know yet.

I thought I was surprised seeing a room full of people ready to shower your upcoming arrival.

I just didn’t know yet.

I thought I was surprised at the sight of your finished nursery.

I just didn’t know yet.

I thought I was surprised when the countdown to your due date became weeks instead of months.

I just didn’t know yet.

I thought I was surprised when everyone gathered at the hospital.

I just didn’t know yet.

The truth is, I had never felt a surprise that compared anything to your tiny little hand wrapped around my finger just moments after you made it into the world. I was surprised in a way that words cannot begin to describe. Each day you surprise me more than the day before. I just didn’t know a surprise could fill my world with so much happiness.

The surprise of a lifetime has been realizing my whole world is perfect just being my son’s mother.